Wounded Heart

I didn’t want to see you

Your pain I didn’t feel
Your presence softly calling me
Help me please to heal

Reluctantly and gently
I turn to face your cries
My heart with full compassion
Tears of love now fill my eyes

My love I’m here at last for you
Forgive me I did not see
Now all the love from my deep heart
I gift to you from me

Exquisite tender soft caress
A lightness to the dark
The healing can begin at last
No more my wounded heart

© Sandra Hillawi 2019

Restoring My Inner Power

I wonder
If everything that is within me
that is blocking my full power
from being available
can be allowed to be
for a moment just as it is

I wonder …

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The Last Gaze

So tired now
Two days of life remain
You lie on your side
Awake for afew moments
Breathing so slight

And your Soul looks out at me
Through the windows of
Your half open eyes

Searching and focussed
For one now so frail
And I sit and look back
Holding your gaze

Our Souls in connection

You are my lovely Mum

With the love that is my whole being
I look into your eyes
For the last time

And I am your daughter
There is only love
There is only love Mum
I love you
Thankyou

Your eyes speak love silently
As we hold our Soul connection

A moment that
I wished could stay

I will connect with you Mum
Your Soul
After
I know how

You close your eyes to sleep

One more day remains
Until your last breath

I love you Mum and always will
Thankyou
Always

20th July 2024 Sandra Hillawi

Of the precious moment 9th May 2024

Prayer for Healing The Heart

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I ask that love and beauty be around you and in you every day
I ask that love and comfort protect you
I ask that you feel the comfort support and security that being loved brings
I ask that your heart is softened by this love
And that it dares to open and connect
I ask that gentleness touch the injuries deep within
And bring the blessing of healing that is long awaited
I ask that you feel a new ease release and expansion
I ask that your blessed creativity flows and returns to you the happiness that is your beautiful Soul and that this in turn brings wholeness and renewal in your being

I ask God to bless your magnificent heart in every way you need now and always

Amen

5 August 2018

Updated 26 May 2024

Prayer On The Passing of My Lovely Mum

In this moment as you leave this earthly place 
I ask The Lord to hold you in His soft embrace
May His Love surround you
May His Love be with you
May His Love be in you
May His Love carry you to your rest
May Heavenly Angels watch over you
May Love and Light adore you
May all the Love that fills the space
Keep your Soul in Holy Grace
We give our thanks for all you are
To those who loved you near and far
May your body and soul return to God
We surrender you our dear and lovely Mother
To rest in His Eternal Love

Sandra Hillawi

As The Celtic Harp


As the celtic harp plays your favourite haunting air
My fingers softly caress your old and grey hair
Body frail and so tired you sleep
A deserved rest 82 years of love deep
Never were you more beautiful to me dear Mother

All the years pass before me
Quiet tears freely flow
I sit with you knowing
It’s not long til you go
Sweet aches of love are in my heart
For soon will come the time for us to part
And never were you more beautiful to me dear Mother

And when you leave to your heavenly place
And rest in Eternal Infinite Love’s embrace
I will play your song and somehow some way
Our souls will meet as they connect this day
And never will you be more beautiful to me my dear Mother

Sandra Hillawi 4th May 2024

Love Compassion and Mercy on Every One

For all those effected in places of conflict 
Be that countries 
Be that in the home 
In families

Love and Compassion
For all the places inside us
That are in pain and in fear
 
Love and Mercy  
For all the ways that we need to feel  
And express our pain and anger and fear
Which has consequences and waves
On others around us

Love Compassion and Mercy
On all of us 
In all of our situations
For all that are around us
That are effected by our pain, fear, suffering

Love and Compassion 
On those who are blessed to be 
In the position of power
To make a difference 
Through their kindness
Through their sympathy
Through their understanding
Through their protection

May all beings be blessed
With God's Love Compassion and Mercy

And may we all feel the soothing
The release
The ease of our pain
And the restoration of peace
And Love in our hearts

Love Compassion and Mercy
On all of us be that 
In the home
In our cities
In our countries
Wherever we are in the world
With whatever we have to face
And deal with in front of us

God's Love 
God's Compassion 
God's Mercy
On Every One

With Thanks

Amen


Sandra Hillawi 9 October 2023

Can I Expand Can I Heal Can I Open

Can I expand? can I heal? can I open?

Can the boundaries of my heart dissolve this time?

Can the light in my heart be set free at last?

Can the light just radiate from inside?

Can the pain in my heart just dissolve now?

Can my heart just relax and feel a sigh?

Can the softness return, that gentle easiness?

Can I be once again by my own side?

Sandra Hillawi 4th July 2023

I Allow Myself The Space

I allow myself the space

To sit awhile

With all that is

Allowing all to be

Exactly as it is

I breathe and I watch

I breathe and I allow

All

I allow myself to be as I am

Where I am

How I am

And I contemplate a greater Allowance

Allowance without resistance

Expansion that accommodates

All there is

Allowing all in advance

Now and for all time

Mercy

I rest in Mercy

I abide in Mercy

I abide in Mercy

I abide in Mercy

I rest and sleep awhile

© Sandra Hillawi 21 April 2022

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You Are My Valentine

You Are My Valentine

Though you may be far away
I feel you in my heart
With love and joy and happiness
Even when we're far apart

You're in my eyes, my thoughts, my dreams
You're always on my mind
Until the time you're back to me
You'll be my Valentine

You fill my life, you fill my heart
The joy just overflows
I sing aloud in happiness
Wherever our life goes

So thanks my love for all you are
And all you've been this time
Near or far it matters not
You are my Valentine

You fill my life, you fill my heart
The joy just overflows
I sing aloud in happiness
Wherever our life goes

So thanks my love for all you are
And all you've been this time
Near or far it matters not
You are my Valentine
You are my Valentine
You are my Valentine


Copyright Sandra Hillawi 14th February 2023

My Soul Spoke Its Gentle Presence

I sit I connect I listen....
Your words mingle with my thoughts
Your soul appears and touches mine
I smile for a moment of beauty happened

My soul spoke its gentle presence

"I am here take me with you"
Yes I reply
I am already forgiven 
For my soul knows me well

The moment dissolves unfurls 
A gentle wisp it lingers 
And then it is gone
Filed for evermore
A memory in the Book of The Soul

My gentle soul gives way
As life calls to my mind 
Until the next moment of beauty 
Might find its time to be


Sandra Hillawi
21 August 2022