I didn’t want to see you
Your pain I didn’t feel
Your presence softly calling me
Help me please to heal
Reluctantly and gently
I turn to face your cries
My heart with full compassion
Tears of love now fill my eyes
My love I’m here at last for you
Forgive me I did not see
Now all the love from my deep heart
I gift to you from me
Exquisite tender soft caress
A lightness to the dark
The healing can begin at last
No more my wounded heart
© Sandra Hillawi 2019
I feel like a lost soul
My anchor point is gone
I'm drifting aimlessly
I can't stop eating
Feeding this restless place
That appeared within
Since I lost my lovely Mum
One who loved me unconditionally
One for whom I mattered
How do I find the place
Where I belong again
I allow the lost feeling
I feel the lost feeling
I feel for the lost soul that I am
I understand the why the how
And I meet her with love
I am here all for you
And I love you
Open your heart my love
And let me pour all the love you need within
My lost soul looks up in wonder
Daring to open and receive
She drinks deeply from this love
I am here for you my love
I always am and always will be
You belong to me
And I belong to you
We belong to each other
We sing our love duet
Back and forth we give love
We receive love
With happy thankful joy
In intimate connection
Until we are one
And I find and know at last
The place where I belong
I belong to me
I am home in my own heart
I am one with my soul
Sandra Hillawi 30 May 2024
Painting by Maryrose Hillawi, died 10 May 2024
As the celtic harp plays your favourite haunting air
My fingers softly caress your old and grey hair
Body frail and so tired you sleep
A deserved rest 82 years of love deep
Never were you more beautiful to me dear Mother
All the years pass before me
Quiet tears freely flow
I sit with you knowing
It’s not long til you go
Sweet aches of love are in my heart
For soon will come the time for us to part
And never were you more beautiful to me dear Mother
And when you leave to your heavenly place
And rest in Eternal Infinite Love’s embrace
I will play your song and somehow some way
Our souls will meet as they connect this day
And never will you be more beautiful to me my dear Mother
Sandra Hillawi 4th May 2024
Water levels rise
And start to overspill
Calling me to plunge within
To find the centre
The heart
The place that will unlock
A new channel of release
There it is the fault line dark and deep
Attention Continue reading
The Wedding Day
The day of celebration’s here
Guests await, hearts full of cheer
To witness joining of two hearts
That choose ne’er more to be apart
Who knows just when that feeling came
When life would never be the same
‘My love, my heart, you are my life
‘Honour me, become my wife’
Now bride and groom in sparkling beauty
Honoured guests with special duties
Friends and family bright and gay
Gather on this happy day Continue reading
No more long awaited coming
No more far away my love
No more days of tears and sadness
No more waiting for the one
How much time have we been patient
How many roads have we been along
How many tolls has life been taking
Well no more my heart is aching
Long ago that it was breaking
Chorus
Now my heart is light
It overflows
Just as the sun is bright
I know it shows
And if its day or night
Don’t care who knows
Now you are here beside me
Feel the power rise inside me
Repeat Continue reading
Deep thought
Concentration
Heart engaged
Deliberation
Then the words
No more no less
Focussed measured
They address Continue reading
Songs And Poems by Sandra Hillawi 